the answer is potato
I’m not going to say “fuck you” because this is the weirdest message I’ve ever received? I’m really glad you’ve enjoyed my work, and I’m flattered, and thank you, and suppose that this is one of those situations where you can love a book but hate the author (I don’t want to say ender’s game because I don’t think I’m orson scott card levels of bad but… ender’s game) but ???
I just wonder what in particular has made you said this message. Infidelity? Really? Or is it my conceit because btw I’m also super conceited about my writing like sometimes I get insecure but for the most part I’m very, very proud of almost everything that I produce when it comes to fiction
I also feel like my work is so much of myself - Master and Hound and Steadfast being the most extreme examples, and those are my favorite things that I’ve written - is present in the stuff I’ve written that’s available for you guys to read - my perspective on emotion, death, meaninglessness, love - that the idea that I can be untied from this and discarded as having a “sour attitude” is quite strange. Granted, I have devoted the majority of this evening airing literally every bad opinion and emotion I’ve ever had, but I actually don’t feel like I’m this terrible outlier who’s the only one who’s ever felt this shit. Maybe it’s because of the perspective that I’m coming from - that everyone hides the bad parts of themselves on the internet - but this is just the weirdest message like ??? I could probably post a whole slew of things that are equally true about myself as the things I’ve just posted but are positive and “deep” instead and get the opposite reaction out of all of you; humans can also be really shitty and do shitty things and I wanted to embrace and air that today because jesus christ have I been having a really negative two weeks.
Like, in the end I’m glad that you’ve enjoyed my writing and there’s nothing I can do about how you feel about what I’ve said today. But at the same time, like, do you not think that all of your favorite authors have also said, done, and thought a lot of really shitty and baseless shit that they just haven’t bothered to share with you?
let’s be real like
people who have somehow garnered any amount of acclaim in fandom spaces are human beings like everyone else and they generally never agreed to be role models by any standard. and if tumblr didn’t have the tendency to dogpile everyone who dared to express negative shit, i think we’d have a lot more honesty and a lot less kissing ass or superficiality. nobody asked for anyone to impose standards on them and if there are people who are disappointed with someone else’s behavior, then it’s their prerogative. sorry anon, but you haven’t paid anything, you’re not a friend, and in the end, you’re not really owed anything.
tbh i find julia’s airing out of controversial opinions pretty refreshing since people are generally too scared to come out and say what’s on their mind. hell, i censor myself on my tumblr pretty frequently which is pretty ridiculous because it’s my blog. if anyone is really hoping that all their favorite authors are really awesome people without a dark side, i can guarantee that they will be 100% disappointed. it’s the anger and the disgusting side of us that allows us to write well.
in conclusion: i might not show it here, but i am 100% an actual bitch. :))))))
i have been waiting for this gifset since i saw this movie
what if this was actually how they started s3 hahahAHAHA
자꾸만 네가 떠올라, Sinking of you, Daehyun Kim, 2010
The Korean title translates into “i keep thinking of you,” but it literally means “you keep floating up”
and then the English title is “Sinking of you”
so when you think of another person, that mentally woven image will float up to the surface beyond your reach
while you are weighted down by your own obsession
CROSS LINGUISTIC METAPHORS, MAN, I AM HERE FOR THAT